A little update on the Campbell fam.

Ok. I decided everyone might like to know all the things that have been going on in the last month. First of all, my brother finally asked Cat to marry him. Its official now! I have a new future sister-in-law. My brother found out a month or so ago that he was going to be deployed in June. He's thinking he will probably go to Afghanistan. So Cat will be busy planning a wedding here and when he gets home, they will get married right away! So exciting!  That leads into the next big thing happening, we scheduled Jett's c-section. He will be here on April 23rd! We wanted to get it scheduled so that maybe Andrew would be there but he will leave for his two weeks of training on April 18th. It stinks but he will be home on the 30th so Jett will only be a week old and he'll get to be here with him for a little while at least. We went ahead and scheduled out my doctor's appointments and I am going every two weeks now until April 2nd and then I am going every week. It is pretty crazy because this pregnancy has flown by, but at the same time, I feel like it has been an eternity. He is getting REALLY big. I can feel him all over the place in my belly and he is VERY active. I can't wait to see his sweet little face and know what he looks like. We are so excited. Court is talking about him all the time! We will probably have a shower in a few weeks and then it will be pretty much time! Anyway, there's what has been happening with the Campbell clan. Love to All!!

Lydi

It's been awhile

I know its been a long time since I updated. I have sat down a few times to type, but there just haven't been words. I have really been trying to sort out how I'm feeling about life in general lately. And I have to say, I still am not really sure. The Lord has been teaching me so much the past few weeks. He is really walking close to me trying to help me learn how to jump with Him and trust what the outcome will be. A good friend of mine has been telling me that you can only trust someone as well as you know them and I know that that is so true. I think before my precious little boy came into this world, my "trusting God" was really choosing not to think about the bad things that could happen. I think I was, as so many Christians are, under the impression that the cross made it impossible for bad things to happen to me. In the song "Held", by Natalie Grant, she says, "Who told us we'd be rescued, what has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares. We are asking why this happens, to us who have died to live, its unfair. "

I'm realizing that the truth is not that we are safe from the evil world we were born into, but that we are safe in the arms of Jesus. That we are so unaware of how deep and wide and long his love is for us. I have not ever truly grasped the depth of the love that my savior has for me. I am learning, at least to try, to let go and jump with him. Knowing that whatever the outcome, I will be deep inside the overwhelming love of God. My kids are not my own and I am trying to trust Him with them too. The hardest part of that for me is letting go of all the questions that I still have for God concerning Jace. I have so many things that I just don't understand. I can only focus on them every once in awhile. The ache that I feel when I let my guard down and let myself think a lot about him is deeper than I could have ever thought possible. I can almost feel the way he felt in my arms but he is just out of reach for me. I know that it will never truly go away, but I am asking God to show me how to live the rest of this life he has for me in the rest and peace I know he wants for me to live in. I believe that what I am learning is that the key to living in that is truly grasping the depth of his love. 

4 years on February 4th!!

We went to the doctor today and Jett's heart rate was 138! He's getting big!! We are getting really excited. He will be here in a little over ten weeks!! Crazy. It is going so fast but I am getting so ready to see him and know what he looks like and hold him for the first time! I can't wait to see him and see what God has in store for us! Life is so unpredictable and hard but the moments like this are what make it all worth while. 

Rocky and I celebrated our anniversary today. Our actual anniversary was wednesday but Rock took off work today and we spent the whole day together. It was really fun. It sure is unbelievable that we have been married for 4 years and are pregnant with our third child. God is Good and I am so very thankful for my amazing husband. He is so full of faith and such an incredible man of God! 

Lydi