Third Trimester Exhaustion

Ok.  I have forgotten how tired you get again at the end of your pregnancy. I am worn out again! We have been working on the house and getting everything in its place. I am so glad that we pushed so hard and got everything done with the house. It is so nice and homey and really peaceful here. We are having some trouble with Court sleeping now that she is without her passies for security, but she's doing okay considering that she has had those things since she was born! It is so strange to try and settle in here without our sweet Jace Richard. We miss him more every day. Today was pretty weird and slightly reminiscent of last December. It was hard for both of us to deal with all those memories again today. I think its good for us to remember that it has only been almost six months since he went to be with Jesus and that we are just gonna miss him. My best friend and I had a conversation the other day, though about moving forward and knowing that we are always going to miss Jace but knowing that we are not honoring him any less by enjoying our family and our lives right now. That if anything, we are honoring him more by looking forward to the future with hope and faith that we will be happy again. I believe with all my heart that I will never be the same and  that forever I will dream of what it would have been like to see him at every stage. The pain never completely goes away, I am convinced of that. But Molly reminded me that I want my sweet baby Jett to feel that he is just as precious to us as his big brother is and that we are so thankful to have him and excited for him to come. Its so hard, but I am continuing  to learn how to jump of the edge with Jesus and live in the middle of his love for me. I am learning how to live believing that he loves me in every circumstance in my life and knowing that he still loves me, even when I don't understand. Thank you all, My precious friends, for praying for us and lifting us up. This is a hard journey to be on and it continues to be so challenging, but oh to know God the way that I have come to know him!! To grow with him the way that I am learning to do right now! He has never let go of us! 

Lydi

No More Passies and A New Puppy!!

Okay, well we finally got moved in. We painted EVERY room in the new house and it took just a few days but we are pretty exhausted. We also got rid of Court's passies. I put some pictures up of it. We tied them all to balloons and sent them up to heaven to her Bubba. The first night, she was crying and she told her daddy that she thinks maybe when she gets to heaven her Bubba will share the passies with her. She thinks they will just run and play and have their passies. That's what she said and after that she smiled and laid down and went to sleep! She still says it every once in awhile, that she can't wait to have passies with her Bubba in heaven. It has been three days and we are finally going to sleep without crying. She actually did way better than I thought she would. I'm very proud of her. 

We got a siberian husky puppy on saturday. It was a late Christmas present for Court. She has been asking for a puppy since Jace died. I think we are finally getting the hang of that too. We are having so much fun watching her and Court play together. Court named her Eva from her favorite movie, Wall-e. Anyway, I will put up some pictures of the house in a couple of days. I have really good before and after pictures. Just continue to pray for us. This is so hard to make a new start without our sweet little boy. Our invasion story is Sunday at Life church. I'd love for all of you to be able to see it! 

Lydi